Another Solitude

Saya kena cacar air!

Mungkin ini bukan berita besar yg layak jadi headline.

Tapi ini peristiwa besar untuk saya karena si cacar yang centil ini menyebabkan saya, beberapa waktu lalu, selama beberapa hari terkena demam tinggi sehingga saya harus rawat inap di rumah sakit.  Dan karena ini merupakan salah satu penyakit yang gampang menular, saya ditempatkan diruang isolasi.  Serta karena beberapa alasan, saya tidak ditemani oleh siapapun selama rawat inap.  Saya benar-benar sendiri. Ya kecuali sesekali dokter berkunjung dan suster datang untuk memeriksa infus dan kondisi saya.  Selebihnya saya benar-benar sendiri.

Ada banyak hal yang saya nikmati dengan kesendirian saya kali ini

#1  Saya menikmati setiap detik dialog saya dengan Tuhan.  Kesendirian yang tidak sejam dua jam dalam sehari ini membuat saya punya banyak waktu untuk berdialog dengan-Nya. Terasa sangat dekat dan intens serta saya bebas berekspresi.  Betapa saya merasa sangat disayangi oleh-Nya dan ditemani oleh-Nya.  Tuhan sangat menyayangi saya dengan menegur saya melalui sakit ini.  Belum pernah saya merasakan pengalaman spiritual seperti ini setelah Umroh saya beberapa tahun yang lalu. Untuk beberapa hal, ada pengalaman spiritual yang berbeda yang saya alami kali ini yang saya susah ungkapkan.

#2 Saya jadi bisa lebih peka dengan lingkungan sekitar saya.  Please jangan kaitkan hal ini dengan hal-hal yang mistis dan dunia lain.  Dengan sendiri dan terus terang karena suasana rumah sakit yang sepi, saya bisa mendengarkan suara alam.  Suara angin di malam hari, suara burung-burung yang terbang riang di pagi hari, suara jarum jam dinding berdetak dan bahkan saya bisa mendengarkan dan merasakan jantung saya berdetak.  Hahaha Anda tidak merasa horror saat membaca ini :).  Now I believe, in silence, when there are no words, no language, nobody else present, you are getting in tune with existence.

#3 Saya menikmati setiap detik monolog saya dengan diri saya.  Merenungi apa yang sudah saya jalani dan alami.  Mengevaluasi dan mensyukuri apapun yang sudah saya lalui.  Sekali lagi saya semakin mencintai Tuhan dan merasakan kasih-Nya.  Monolog kali ini lebih dasyat dari monolog yang saya lakukan di belasan malam ulang tahun saya.  

#4 Saya jadi lebih menghargai keberadaan orang-orang yang ada disekitar saya.  Kesendirian kali ini membuktikan kepada saya bahwa saya bukan ANTISOSIAL.  Alhamdulillah.  Saya ternyata masih makhluk sosial :).  Saya tidak bisa hidup dan hanya berkomunikasi serta berinteraksi via tv, radio, social media, sms, bbm ataupun whatsapp!  Saya butuh 'kehadiran'.  Betapa senangnya saya saat dikunjungi oleh dokter Markus, dokter jaga kesayangan saya yang tidak hanya ganteng (Info penting!-red)  tapi juga dia satu-satunya dokter jaga yang ngga 'geli' dengan si cacar centil yang narsis di muka saya plus ramah dan sabar.  Juga betapa senangnya saya saat Suster Vita, suster yang mirip Candy-candy, ceria, kepo-an dengan apa yang saya lakukan dan selalu mengajak saya bercanda untuk menghibur saya.  DAN betapa saya ingin menangis saking terharu saat my person menelpon saya mengobrol lama dengan saya, dilanjutkan telepon dari seorang sahabat, lalu kedatangan 2 orang sahabat yang 'nekad' datang menengok walaupun sudah saya larang.  Hiks love you all...

#5 Last but not least,  Saya belajar banyak hal didalam kesendirian kali ini.  Salah satunya adalah Tuhan 'meminjam' sebentar kenikmatan yang selama ini sering saya lalaikan untuk membuat saya sadar betapa tanpa kenikmatan itu saya bukanlah apa-apa, bukanlah siapa-siapa.

Dear Blogger,  jika ditanya apakah saya mau menikmati kesendirian seperti ini lagi.  Jawabannya tentu TIDAK!.  Mudah-mudahan tidak dengan kondisi seperti itu lagi :).

Sometimes we just need to be quite and listen to the sound of silence.  Drown out the voices of the outside world.  Close your eyes.  In silence, we listen to ourselves, and in the quietude, we may even hear the voice of God.

Lebaran

Community Awareness - Tim Angkasa WM70

Community Awareness Angkasa Team (Cita-Citaku Set…: http://youtu.be/q9U-UK-tLFo

A mug of coffee

Beberapa waktu yang lalu saya hangout dengan salah seorang sahabat.  Kami menemukan sebuah toko yang menjual kopi instan dan green tea instan.  Saya kesenengan karena ada macam-macam kopi.  Sahabat saya ini bilang dia ga suka kopi karena pahit.  Saya tertawa dan bilang kalau kopi itu ya emang pahit kalau ga pahit ya bukan kopi namanya.

Kopi itu kenapa ya walaupun pahit tapi tetap saya minum.
Walaupun hitam dan warnanya ga ada cakep-cakepnya aka tidak menarik tapi tetap saya minum.
Jawabannya karena saya suka dan saya adalah seorang penikmat kopi.

Saya bisa menikmati kopi dalam rupa apapun. Mulai dari secangkir kopi tubruk berwarna hitam pekat tanpa gula hingga kopi modern seperti kopi yang dijual di starbuck, saya tetap suka!

Lalu terpikir oleh saya, hidup juga mirip seperti secangkir kopi. Kadang bisa hitam pekat dan pahit seperti kopi tubruk tanpa gula. Kadang manis, hangat dan 'indah' seperti kopi yang dijual di cafe-cafe mahal. Jika kita pecinta kopi maka seharusnya kita tetap bisa menikmatinya pahit atau manis dan apapun penampilannya karena itu kopi.

Sebagian pecinta kopi menyebutkan kalau taste kopi tergantung jenisnya, asalnya, dan cara pengolahannya. Oke, saya juga setuju. Tapi menurut saya, taste itu hanya sebatas panca indera yaitu indera pengecap dan pembau yang menikmatinya.  Jika sang peminum kopi menikmatinya itu semua terasa sama. Toh setelah dia masuk dalam tubuh akan sama saja efeknya. Nah ini sama juga dengan hidup, mau kita kaya, rupawan, pintar dan luar biasa, semuanya tak ada artinya jika kita tidak 'menikmati'nya dan tidak bahagia.

Bagi saya secangkir kopi tubruk hasil 'pampasan perang' di pos satpam di pagi hari sama nikmatnya dengan segelas kopi starbuck. Saya merasa cukup dengan itu dan benar-benar bisa make my day. Kalaupun di suatu pagi, saya mendapat kesempatan minum starbuck ya its ok for me.

Dear blogger, inti tulisan saya ini sebenarnya hanya sederhana kok walaupun tulisan diatas ngelantur kemana-mana. Hahahaha. Intinya adalah nikmati hidup Anda! Bahagia lah dengan hidup Anda saat ini. Bukan berarti kita hanya berpuas diri lalu pasif. Tapi tetaplah berusaha, jika inilah hasilnya tetap nikmati dan berbahagia. Hidup terkadang terasa 'pahit' karena itulah yg kita rasakan, jika kita nikmati rasa pahit itu tidak akan terasa.  Kita adalah barista untuk meracik hidup yang kita inginkan, namun jangan lupa kita juga yang jadi penikmatnya.

So enjoy your life and live your life!

The Best Plan

Sometimes I don't understand God's plans. But I do believe God is always with me and has better, even greatest plans. Because God can see the whole trip while we can only see a little way down the road.

Keep the faith, keep fighting, and give your best effort. Lets God do the rest.

#justmythought

Being Alone or Being Lonely?

I try my best to be a good person. I am not the perfect one and never will be.  I realize I am a moody person, specially in the morning, who definitely not a good company at my bad mood. BUT I always try to be a good person for my persons when I know that they need me.

Yeah I know I can't put my expectation too high and I know I can't expect anything from anyone, especially You, one of my persons. BUT it is really hurt when I realize that my existence is meaningless and still made You feel alone.

Dear You, I think I'll 'hibernate' for a while to give You space to re-thinking about who am I to You. And to give my self a time to calming down the heat in my brain and to wipe these unfriendly tears.

#edisiPMS?

Solitude

"Ada saatnya dalam hidupmu, engkau ingin sendiri saja bersama angin, menceritakan seluruh rahasia, lalu meneteskan air mata" - Bung Karno, 1933

Saya membaca quote ini kemarin saat si quote ini menjadi profil picture salah seorang teman saya.  Hal yang menarik dari quote ini bukanlah sang penulisnya yang merupakan tokoh dan bapak dari bangsa ini, tetapi lebih ke isinya. Bagi saya, isi quote ini sangat 'dalam'.  Menyentuh.

Tiba-tiba saya ingat dan kangen suatu masa disaat saya bisa seperti isi quote itu.  Menyendiri, menikmati pemandangan, bersama angin.  Tinggal di Jakarta yang crowded membuat saya susah dan bahkan tidak lagi bisa melakukan apa yang ada di quote itu.  

Dulu saat saya masih tinggal di Ujung Pandang, sekarang Makassar, saya punya pantai Tanjung Bunga. Pantai ini letaknya sangat dekat dengan rumah saya, yah palingan hanya 20 menitan dengan berjalan kaki. Dulu pantai ini masih belum dilirik oleh para pengembang properti dan belum terlalu ramai.  Hanya dikunjungi oleh penduduk setempat.

Setelah kuliah di Bogor, tepatnya di daerah Dramaga, sebuah saung di sawah dekat kost adalah tempat favorite saya untuk menyendiri.  

Sebenarnya waktu pertama kali tinggal di Jakarta, di kantor pertama saya, saya menemukan tempat yang cocok untuk menyendiri.  Rooftop.  Kantor saya menempati sebuah gedung 8 lantai di kawasan Cikini, dan saya berkantor dilantai 6.  Dengan naik 2 lantai melalui tangga darurat, saya bisa masuk ke area rooftop, yang entah mengapa tidak pernah dikunci, dan yang suka ke area itu cuma saya tampaknya (saya tidak pernah bertemu dengan siapa-siapa soalnya).  Tidak ada pemandangan seindah pantai Tanjung Bunga dan sawah disini, hanya gedung, kali dan rel kereta api, tapi saya tetap suka menyendiri disini.

Tentang menyendiri.  

Hmm pada dasarnya memang saya bukan orang yang suka keramaian, tetapi saya bukan tipe penyendiri. Saya suka kok ke Mall, hang out dengan teman-teman di tempat-tempat asyik.  Tetapi memang ada saatnya saya ingin dan butuh sendiri.

Pernah ngga kamu merasa terlalu lelah untuk berbasa-basi?

Pernah ngga kamu merasa terlalu lelah untuk bicara?

Pernah ngga kamu merasa terlalu lelah menghadapi dunia?

Pernah ngga kamu merasa terlalu lelah dengan sisi baikmu?

Pernah ngga kamu merasa kamu hanya ingin menjadi diri sendiri dan 'bebas' dari penilaian orang lain?

Pernah ngga kamu merasa bahwa susah untuk mengungkapkan kepada orang lain apa yang kamu rasakan?

Pernah ngga kamu merasa bahwa tak ada orang lain yang benar - benar mengerti apa yang kamu rasakan saat itu?

Nah disaat-saat seperti itulah saya menyendiri.  Menikmati me-time.  Menikmati saat saya bisa mengeluarkan emosi saya.  Menikmati saat air mata bisa bebas keluar dan membiarkan angin membawanya pergi.  Dan setelah itu saya akan merasa lega.

Aaaah betapa saya kangen bisa seperti itu lagi di alam terbuka.

Serendipity

"Serendipity is a fortunate accident.
I don't really believe in accidents.
I think fate's behind everything.
Everything's predestined?
I think we make our own decisions.
I just think that fate sends us little signs.
And it's how we read the signs that determines whether we're happy or not."

That lines I quote from dialog in a movie 'Serendipity'.  Same like Sara, a main actress in this movie, I don't believe in accidents.  I believe there is fate behind every accidents happen to me.

I never knew on the first time I met you that someday you will ( already happen thought) intervene my mind. I can direct my heart when it suddenly response to and choose you. I believe you came to my life for a reason and the reason is you came to coloring my monotonous life.

But, like the lines above, lately, fate send me a few little signs that guide us to nothings but bestie.

Just like tonight. I really thinking of you, and ta daaa you come up with that status. When I want to really see you but was too proud to ask, fate directed me to a different place to where you are. At first, I really want to go to that place. Aaahhh is it a little sign that fate send to me?

@Starbucks Grand Indonesia, October 6th, 2013
#latepost

First piece of puzzle

Yup on this date, 2 years ago, I've got my first puzzle from you. Since that day, my life was never the same again.

Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you to put your trust on me.
Thank you to teach me those feelings again.
Thank you to coloring my life.

Kado (2)

Menerima kado adalah salah satu moment yang menyenangkan untuk saya. Moment lainnya yang menyenangkan buat saya adalah mencari, memilih dan memberi kado.  Karena saya tahu bagaimana senangnya menerima kado, makanya saat saya juga suka memberi kado untuk orang-orang kesayangan saya.

Kegiatan mencari dan memilih kado itu sangat menyenangkan karena saya suka segala sesuatu yang sifatnya personal. Sebisa mungkin kado yang saya akan berikan adalah:
1. Wishlist dari yang bersangkutan
2. Kalau saya tidak tahu wishlist-nya, maka saya akan cari sesuatu yang identik dengan yamg bersangkutan. Entah itu terkait hobby-nya, warna kesukaannya, tokoh kesukaannya etc.

Agak ribet sih,  tapi itu setimpal banget dengan perasaan saya saat si penerima kado antusias dan senang banget dengan kado dari saya. Euforia seperti itu akan menular kepada saya dan saya suka dengan rasa itu :).

Kado (1)

Salah satu moment yang paling menyenangkan buat saya adalah saat menerima sebuah kado, membukanya dan akhirnya mengetahui isinya. Terlebih lagi saat saya tahu tidak ada moment khusus yang membuat saya 'layak' menerima kado, seperti disuatu pagi di minggu lalu.  Ketika saya sampai di meja kantor saya, saya melihat ada bungkusan tergeletak di atas meja saya.

Bungkusannya biasa saja, lapisan paling luar adalah plastik pembungkus biasa dari agen kurir, kemudian ada bungkus coklat yang membungkus kardus coklat. Pengirimnya adalah salah seorang sahabat saya, saya suka panggil dia Mami, belakangan dia saya panggil dia Mami Peri karena dia memamggil saya peri cinta (Karena saya suka sekali lagu Peri Cinta-nya Marcell).  Hmm saya ngga bisa duga isinya apa.  Sang sahabat saya ini memang pernah menjanjikan sesuatu tapi ukurannya ga sebesar ini dan katanya akan dititipkan teman yang cukup sering ketemu saya. Makin penasaran.

Kardus coklatpun sudah saya buka dan masih bertemu dengan bubble plastik.  Oooouuccch benda fragile apakah yg dikirimkan. Dan setelah saya buka ternyataaaa adalah 4 botol kaca kecil berbentuk beruang. So kawaaaaaiiiiii (>o<) ♥♥♥.

Sahabat-sahabat saya tahu kalau saya ini adalah kolektor pasir dan suka kebingungan mencari tempat untuk menyimpan jika ada pasir-pasir baru. Jadi botol-botol kaca ini akan saya gunakan untuk koleksi pasir yang istimewa.

Terima kasih Mami Peri-ku....

About Feeling

Sometimes you just can't tell someone how you feel. Not because you don't trust them, nor because you are afraid. But because you can't  find the right words to describe your feeling, to make them understand. And it make you frustated. People's mind are complex and take things in so many different ways.

Sometimes its good for you to keep your feeling secretly, if you think they can hear you but they can't understand what you said.

But sometimes you have to tell it, not just to make you feel relieved, also because that someone deserve to know the truth. If what you're trying to say is meant to be said. It will find a way to be.

Now, my dear you, I am on a mission to find the right words and the right timing to tell you how I feel bout you. I hope when the words are found and the time is right, you'll be understand why I act and react like I do now.

@indianamind
17/02/2014

You (Part 4)

Wahai Penguasa hati | Tempat seluruh pengharapan akan kembali ... #indianamind (March 1st, 2013)

Kamu adalah Matahari | Sinarmu yang membuat aku, Rembulan, bercahaya #indianamind (March 1st, 2013)

Before I sleep, all I wanna do is hear your voice | Aaahh Good nite my Kryptonite #indianamind (March 1st, 2013)

I know | I just can't help it, though...*sigh*.... #indianamind (March 2nd, 2013)

Happiness is simple | Grateful to having a quality time with You | Really recharge my energy to face another rush week | thank you #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

Aaaargggh you really know how to push my ego up .... #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

The point is we can't help who we fall in love with #moviequote #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

Like a cat | You will play with everyone who response your miauw... *sigh* #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

"Can I tell You something? You're the only reason I did" - 10 Years #indianamind #moviequote (March 12th, 2013)

Ima wa mada kanashii love song.. Atarashii uta utaeru made #song #indianamind (March 13th, 2013)

Ah kamu selalu sukses membuatku meleleh .. #indianamind (March 13th, 2013)

Today, I keep myself busy 'till so tired, but in between, every time I pause, I think of you *whew* #indianamind (March 17th, 2013)

Through the good & the bad times... You're the best I never had .. #moviequote #indianamind (March 21st, 2013)

Someone said "Don't make a promises you can't keep" | Me said "Yeah, but those are the best kind" ... *whew* #indianamind (March 23rd, 2013)

You are my sunshine | My only sunshine | You make me happy | When skies are gray | You'll never know dear | How much I love you | Please | Don't take your sunshine away ... :' #moviequote #indianamind (March 23rd, 2013)

"untuk apa mempertahankan yg sudah tidak layak dipertahankan " by @GlennFredly ...yup agree.. Cukup sudah #song #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

Aaaarrrghhh… hate You  #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

Aaaah so sweet to pick me up *batal ngambeg* #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

Yeeeeaaay ada tebengan #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

Today, I keep myself busy, put my blackberry away from me, try not to contact You | But, still, when I stop my activities, my mind will fly to You | Miss You  #indianamind (March 30th, 2013)

Though I am Sherlock Holmes | You are the most complex case that I might not be able to solve it #shinichikudo #indianamind (March 30th, 2013)

Raise my white flag… and surrender …*whew*..…#song #indianamind (March 31st, 2013)Yeah You bleed just to know you’re alive …#song #indianamind (April 1st, 2013)

How do you find the word to say.. This is just Goodbye ;-) … #song #indianamind (April 1st, 2013)

Aku kangen kamu . ngga kangen , atau ? #indianamind (April 7th, 2013)

You just pop up in my mind | Suddenly I feel all oxygen around me disappear | Made me hard to breathe | Kryptonite, I miss you #indianamind (April 11th, 2013)

Terdiam mendengar kisahmu | Hanya bisa menggenggam tanganmu dan menguatkanmu #indianamind #firstpuzzle #180312 #somerset (April 12th, 2013)

We like the X, Y, and Z in #euler diagram | IF ( " No Y's are Z's" and "All X's are Y's") THEN (No X's are Z's") #indianamind (April 15th, 2013)

Playing sudoku while waiting you finished your work.. #indianamind (April 21st , 2013)

Like reading a book | Next page of you always surprised me | Made me more curious | Kryptonite, I ain't finish with you yet #indianamind (April 23rd, 2013)

Hello my supermassive black hole. How r u? #song #indianamind (May 12th, 2013)

Hey rollercoaster | You soar my feeling high then slammed it down | Luckily I don’t get heart attack or slowly I became heartless #indianamind (May 16th, 2013)

You (Part 3)

Good Day my Kryptonite... I'm wearing smile that you give me... #indianamind (January 3rd, 2013)

You were born because you are going to be important to someone #morningmantra #indianamind 
(January 4th, 2013)

Wish that I could cry… Fall upon my knees…#song #indianamind (January 4th, 2013)

I feel my wings have broken in your hands …#song #indianamind (January 4th, 2013)

Hey Kryptonite..please be kind to me.. Don't give me pain for tonite.. #indianamind (January 5th, 2013)

Some search, never finding a way … #song #indianamind (January 6th, 2013)

All those fairy tales are full of shit… One more fucking love song… I’ll be sick #song #indianamind 
(January 6th, 2013)

You will always be inside my heart  Itsumo anata dake... #song #indianamind (January 6th, 2013)

You asks "who's destroy your mind?" and I really wanna answer "YOU!!!"...aaaarrrrgggh .. #indianamind 
(January 8th, 2013)

Well, forget it. I've spent too much time crying over you…#moviequote #indianamind (January 8th, 2013)

Dear my sunshine, miss you badly... :'(…#indianamind (January 9th, 2013)

I can't stop lovin' you. No matter what I say or do. You know my heart is true. I can't stop lovin' you 
#song #indianamind (January 12th, 2013)

kembali ke hitam n hijau, warna, setelah menjelajahi merah muda, abu-abu n biru juga :-) #indianamind 
(January 12th, 2013)

Right now, You will be the answer when somebody asks me what ruin my mind....*whew* #indianamind 
(January 12th, 2013)

hey Dee,what are you doing? | i'm breaking my own heart | wow, that's quite interesting activity | yes, thank you 
#friendquote #indianamind (January 13th, 2013)

Love is funny. Makes you happy, sad and do all sorts of things you never thought you'd do before. #moviequote 
#indianamind (January 19th, 2013)

To forget easily is a gift. Let go of your past mistakes. Make a fresh start ..#moviequote #indianamind 
(January 19th, 2013)

Suddenly thinking of my kryptonite...Hey, how are you? #indianamind (January 20th, 2013)

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before the right one, so when we finally meet that person, 
we will know how to be grateful.. #indianamind (January 20th, 2013)

To the world, you may be someone; but to someone, you might be the world.... Morning n cheer up :-).. 
#indianamind (January 21st, 2013)

Jangan pernah membiarkan kecintaanmu kpd makhluk ciptaanNya membutakanmu, apalagi melebihi 
kecintaanmu kepadaNya #pembelajaran #indianamind (January 25th, 2013)

You like an Onion | I need a lot of patience, sometimes, tears to get the real You #indianamind (January 27th, 2013

Kamu adalah lubang hitam | gravitasimu begitu kuat membuatku terus mendekat | hingga batas horizon | dan kemudian kamu membuatku menghilang dan akhirnya pecah berkeping-keping #blackholetheory #indianamind  (Februari 4th, 2013)

I came into your life not to make you love me, but to let you feel that you're so much worth to loving for..nite kryptonite #indianamind (Februari 6th, 2013)

One day you'll ask me which is more important, ur life or mine? I'll say mine.. You’ll walk away not knowing that You're my life #indianamind (Februari 7th, 2013)

Right now, You will be the answer when somebody asks me what ruin my mind... #indianamind (Februari 7th, 2013)

Like a kryptonite... You make me powerless... #indianamind (Februari 7th, 2013)

Somehow, for me, you are both the best and worst thing that has ever happened in my life... Nite kryptonite #indianamind (Februari 9th, 2013)

Diam-diam sayang sama teman sendiri? nggak apa-apa. lebih mulia dari diam-diam benci sama teman sendiri #IkaNatassa #indianamind (Februari 9th, 2013)

Do you realize that we don't see certain things until we're ready to see them in a certain way? #indianamind (Februari 10th, 2013)

I know, It's a fight that I can't win | There's nothing i can do | So I'm giving up tonight | Nite Kryptonite #indianamind (Februari 10th, 2013)

You like a pendulum | Swing my feeling and my life | But I promise to myself | You won't hypnotized me #indianamind (Februari 14th, 2013)

If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me | And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be #indianamind #song (Februari 15th, 2013)

Naturally, You pull me out from my pattern | So others will be surprise because they can see the real me #indianamind (Februari 16th, 2013)

You & me like the earth & the planet | The apparent retrograde & direct motion of the planet arise not from its motion but from the earth' #heliocentric #theory #indianamind (Februari 19th, 2013)

Maybe some secrets should just stay secret... #movie #indianamind (Februari 20th, 2013)

Sometimes you have to say goodbye to the things you know and hello to the things you don't #movie #indianamind (February 20th ,2013)

Macam emak2 yg mengkhawatirkan anaknya…hiks khawatir sangat .. #indianamind (February 21st,2013)

If you are hurricane | I choose to be drizzle ... #indianamind (February 23th,2013)

Meleburkan semua batas …# song #indianamind (February 23th,2013)

:’(.. sad for you …gws ..#indianamind (February 24th,2013)

Looking at to the full moon.. are you looking  the same too? Hmm don’t think so …(February 25th,2013)

And the universe conspired to thwart my plan.. It's a sign? :'( .. #indianamind (February 26th,2013)

Like a puzzle | I need to assemble piece by piece to see the real you #indianamind (February 26th,2013)

It’s OK to follow your heart... But please take your brain with you #indianamind (February27th, 2013)

You (Part 2)

Hey rollercoaster | You soar my feeling high then slammed it down | Luckily I don’t get heart attack or slowly I became heartless #indianamind (May 16th, 2013)

Hello my supermassive black hole. How r u? #song #indianamind (May 12th, 2013)

:’( sabda rindu … #song #indianamind (May 9th, 2013)

Perusak diet (>.<) …#latedinner #indianamind (May 6th, 2013)

Menunggu kamu …#indianamind (May 6th, 2013)

Hiks …#indianamind (May 4th, 2013)

Yummmiii .. #latedinner #indianamind (April 30th, 2013)

Like reading a book | Next page of you always surprised me | Made me more curious | Kryptonite, I ain't finish with you yet #indianamind (April 23rd, 2013)

Korban kebakaran malam mini…ckckckck *melirik tajam kepada si pembakar* #indianamind (April 21st , 2013)

Playing sudoku while waiting you finished your work.. #indianamind (April 21st , 2013)

Gurame persembahan hati… #latedinner (April 18th , 2013)

We like the X, Y, and Z in #euler diagram | IF ( " No Y's are Z's" and "All X's are Y's") THEN (No X's are Z's") #indianamind (April 15th, 2013)

Makasih oleh-olehnya …#indianamind (April 14th, 2013)

Terdiam mendengar kisahmu | Hanya bisa menggenggam tanganmu dan menguatkanmu #indianamind #firstpuzzle #031812 #somerset (April 12th, 2013)

You just pop up in my mind | Suddenly I feel all oxygen around me disappear | Made me hard to breathe | Kryptonite, I miss you #indianamind (April 11th, 2013)

Aku kangen kamu . Ngga kangen , atau ? #indianamind (April 7th, 2013)

How do you find the word to say.. This is just Goodbye ;-) … #song #indianamind (April 1st, 2013)

Yeah You bleed just to know you’re alive …#song #indianamind (April 1st, 2013)

Raise my white flag… and surrender …*whew*..…#song #indianamind (March 31st, 2013)

Though I am Sherlock Holmes | You are the most complex case that I might not be able to solve it #shinichikudo #indianamind (March 30th, 2013)

Today, I keep myself busy, put my blackberry away from me, try not to contact You | But, still, when I stop my activities, my mind will fly to You | Miss You  #indianamind (March 30th, 2013)

Yeeeeaaay ada tebengan #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

Aaaah so sweet to pick me up *batal ngambeg* #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

Aaaarrrghhh… hate You  #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

"untuk apa mempertahankan yg sudah tidak layak dipertahankan " by @GlennFredly ...yup agree.. Cukup sudah #song #indianamind (March 28th, 2013)

You are my sunshine | My only sunshine | You make me happy | When skies are gray | You'll never know dear | How much I love you | Please | Don't take your sunshine away ... :' #moviequote #indianamind (March 23rd, 2013)

Someone said "Don't make a promises you can't keep" | Me said "Yeah, but those are the best kind" ... *whew* #indianamind (March 23rd, 2013)

Morning dear Kryptonite, today I’m wearing the smile that you gave me… :-) #indianamind (March 22nd, 2013)

Through the good & the bad times... You're the best I never had .. #moviequote #indianamind (March 21st, 2013)

Today, I keep myself busy 'till so tired, but in between, every time I pause, I think of you *whew* #indianamind (March 17th, 2013)

Ima wa mada kanashii love song.. Atarashii uta utaeru made #song #indianamind (March 13th, 2013)

Ah kamu selalu sukses membuatku meleleh .. #indianamind (March 13th, 2013)

Steak lagiiiii #latedinner #indianamind (March 12th, 2013)

"Can I tell You something? You're the only reason I did" - 10 Years #indianamind #moviequote (March 12th, 2013)

Never Be You …#song #indianamind (March 10th, 2013)

I choose to be happy & be who I wanna be. If others doesn't like it, then let them be. Life isn't about pleasing everybody #indianamind (March 9th, 2013)

Someone Like You #song #indianamind (March 9th, 2013)

New comer on my office desk (^_^)... #indianamind (March 5th, 2013)

Hmmm… #latedinner #indianamind (March 4th, 2013)

Like a cat | You will play with everyone who response your miauw... *sigh* #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

The point is we can't help who we fall in love with #moviequote #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

Aaaargggh you really know how to push my ego up .... #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

Happiness is simple | Grateful to having a quality time with You | Really recharge my energy to face another rush week | thank you #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

Unintended …#song #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

Found love in a hopeless place…#song #indianamind (March 3rd, 2013)

I know | I just can't help it, though...*sigh*.... #indianamind (March 2nd, 2013)

Before I sleep, all I wanna do is hear your voice | Aaahh Good nite my Kryptonite #indianamind (March 1st, 2013)

Kamu adalah Matahari | Sinarmu yang membuat aku, Rembulan, bercahaya #indianamind (March 1st, 2013)

Wahai Penguasa hati | Tempat seluruh pengharapan akan kembali ... #indianamind (March 1st, 2013)

OK kayaknya ada yg jempolnya bisulan... :-P #indianamind (February28th, 2013)

It’s OK to follow your heart... But please take your brain with you #indianamind (February27th, 2013)

'cuz in the daylight, we'll be on our own…#song #indianamind (February 27th,2013)

Don't leave something good to find something better. Once u realize you had the best, the best has found better (February 27th,2013)

Like a puzzle | I need to assemble piece by piece to see the real you #indianamind (February 26th,2013)

And the universe conspired to thwart my plan.. It's a sign? :'( .. #indianamind (February 26th,2013)

Looking at to the full moon.. are you looking  the same too? Hmm don’t think so …(February 25th,2013)

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”-Mother Theresa #quotes #indianamind (February 25th,2013)

Oh Love…# song #indianamind (February 24th,2013)

:’(.. sad for you …gws ..#indianamind (February 24th,2013)

Meleburkan semua batas …# song #indianamind (February 23th,2013)

You deserves a guy who says: "I can't imagine a world without you." …#moviequote #indianamind (February 23th,2013)

If you are hurricane | I choose to be drizzle ... #indianamind (February 23th,2013)

Good night my Kryptonite... #indianamind (February 23th,2013)

Macam emak2 yg mengkhawatirkan anaknya…hiks khawatir sangat .. #indianamind (February 21st,2013)

Sometimes you have to say goodbye to the things you know and hello to the things you don't #movie #indianamind (February 20th ,2013)

Ouuuchcchhh… #morethanthis #song #indianamind (Februari 20th, 2013)

Maybe some secrets should just stay secret... #movie #indianamind (Februari 20th, 2013)

Why d'ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you..  #song #indianamind (Februari 19th, 2013)

You & me like the earth & the planet | The apparent retrograde & direct motion of the planet arise not from its motion but from the earth' #heliocentric #theory #indianamind (Februari 19th, 2013)

Berhenti bertanya | Biarkan mengalir | Aksi reaksi | Dan biarkan hukum kekekalan energi bekerja #indianamind (Februari 16th, 2013)

Naturally, You pull me out from my pattern | So others will be surprise because they can see the real me #indianamind (Februari 16th, 2013)

If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me | And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be #indianamind #song (Februari 15th, 2013)

You like a pendulum | Swing my feeling and my life | But I promise to myself | You won't hypnotized me #indianamind (Februari 14th, 2013)

I know, It's a fight that I can't win | There's nothing i can do | So I'm giving up tonight | Nite Kryptonite #indianamind (Februari 10th, 2013)

Do you realize that we don't see certain things until we're ready to see them in a certain way? #indianamind (Februari 10th, 2013)

diam-diam sayang sama teman sendiri? nggak apa-apa. lebih mulia dari diam-diam benci sama teman sendiri #IkaNatassa #indianamind (Februari 9th, 2013)

Somehow, for me, you are both the best and worst thing that has ever happened in my life... Nite kryptonite #indianamind (Februari 9th, 2013)

Dear Sunshine, thank you because your light made me luminous... Morniiiiiing... #indianamind (Februari 8th, 2013)

Like a kryptonite... You make me powerless... #indianamind (Februari 7th, 2013)

Right now, You will be the answer when somebody asks me what ruin my mind... #indianamind (Februari 7th, 2013)

One day you'll ask me which is more important, ur life or mine? I'll say mine.. You’ll walk away not knowing that You're my life #indianamind (Februari 7th, 2013)

I came into your life not to make you love me, but to let you feel that you're so much worth to loving for..nite kryptonite #indianamind (Februari 6th, 2013)

Kamu adalah lubang hitam | gravitasimu begitu kuat membuatku terus mendekat | hingga batas horizon | dan kemudian kamu membuatku menghilang dan akhirnya pecah berkeping-keping #blackholetheory #indianamind  (Februari 4th, 2013)

"Never regret something that ever made you smile once, because at the time... it was exactly everything you wanted".. Morniiiiing!!!! #indianamind (January 31st , 2013)

But every time I try to move on, you're right there..#moviequote #indianamind (January 28th, 2013)

Sometimes, you have to let go of people that mean alot to you. Not you don’t love them but because its the best thing to do for both #lesson #indianamind (January 28th, 2013)

You like an Onion | I need a lot of patience, sometimes, tears to get the real You #indianamind (January 27th, 2013)

Jangan pernah membiarkan kecintaanmu kpd makhluk ciptaanNya membutakanmu, apalagi melebihi kecintaanmu kepadaNya #pembelajaran #indianamind (January 25th, 2013)

I'm just speechless baby.. Don't know what to say.. I'm just speechless.. #indianamind (January 26th, 2013)

To the world, you may be someone; but to someone, you might be the world.... Morning n cheer up :-).. #indianamind (January 21st, 2013)

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before the right one, so when we finally meet that person, we will know how to be grateful .. #indianamind (January 20th, 2013)

Suddenly thinking of my kryptonite...Hey, how are you? #indianamind (January 20th, 2013)

To forget easily is a gift. Let go of your past mistakes. Make a fresh start ..#moviequote #indianamind (January 19th, 2013)

Love is funny. Makes you happy, sad and do all sorts of things you never thought you'd do before. #moviequote #indianamind (January 19th, 2013)

Happiness is being who you are and who you with.. #quote #indianamind (January 18th, 2013)

hey dev,what are you doing? | i'm breaking my own heart | wow, that's quite interesting activity | yes, thank you #friendquote #indianamind (January 13th, 2013)

Right now, You will be the answer when somebody asks me what ruin my mind....*whew* #indianamind (January 12th, 2013)

kembali ke hitam n hijau, warna, setelah menjelajahi merah muda, abu-abu n biru juga :-) #indianamind (January 12th, 2013)

I can't stop lovin' you. No matter what I say or do. You know my heart is true. I can't stop lovin' you #song #indianamind (January 12th, 2013)

Dear my sunshine, miss you badly... :'(…#indianamind (January 9th, 2013)

Well, forget it. I've spent too much time crying over you…#moviequote #indianamind (January 8th, 2013)

You asks "who's destroy your mind?" and I really wanna answer "YOU!!!"...aaaarrrrgggh .. #indianamind (January 8th, 2013)

You will always be inside my heart  Itsumo anata dake... #song #indianamind (January 6th, 2013)

All those fairy tales are full of shit… One more fucking love song… I’ll be sick #song #indianamind (January 6th, 2013)

Some search, never finding a way … #song #indianamind (January 6th, 2013)

Hey Kryptonite..please be kind to me.. Don't give me pain for tonite.. #indianamind (January 5th, 2013)

Wish that I could cry… Fall upon my knees…#song #indianamind (January 4th, 2013)

I feel my wings have broken in your hands …#song #indianamind (January 4th, 2013)

You were born because you are going to be important to someone #morningmantra #indianamind (January 4th, 2013)

Good Day my Kryptonite... I'm wearing smile that you give me... #indianamind (January 3rd, 2013)

Aku tak ingin seperti kembang api. Meletup penuh semangat, berpijar sesaat, kemudian meredup dengan cepat lalu hilang terlupakan #indianamind (December 31st, 2012)

Hope it’s just a bad dream bout you, not a hunch...*istigfar n minum air putih*... #indianamind (December 27th, 2012)

Try sleeping with a broken heart …#song #indianamind (December 25th, 2012)

Never regret for something that ever made you smile once, because at the time it was exactly everything you wanted… #indianamind (December 19th, 2012)

A sad thing in life is when U meet someone who means a lot to U,only 2 find out in the end that it was never meant 2 be&U just have 2 let go #friendquote #indianamind (December 18th, 2012)

. -- --- ... .. / - .. -. --. -.- .- - / -.. . .-- .- #indianamind (December 17th, 2012)

Lesson#1 by @devinasofiyanti .. Cinta itu tidak mengenal kata subsitusi... Harus eliminasi…ada 4 tingkatan nih (1) dia ga tahu kamu suka sama dia, (2) dia tahu tp malu (3) dia tahu tp ga suka, (4) dia tahu tp suka sama yg lain... nah yg paling #jleb (°.°") ya no.4 ...#friendquote #indianamind (December 17th, 2012)

Wahai matahari dimana kamu? Bersahabatlah denganku siang ini.... #indianamind (December 16th, 2013)

Enjoy my strawberry pocky alone...hiks miss you...:'(..#indianamind (December 14th, 2013)

"Cinta harus diungkapkan, kecuali oleh orang yg terlalu mencintai diri sendiri" #moviequote #indianamind (December 14th, 2013)

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they'll notice. If they don't, you know where you stand..#quote #indianamind (December 6th, 2013)

Sebenarnya siapa yang membuat kita kecewa? Kita sendiri | Kita tidak akan pernah kecewa jika kita selalu mengendalikan harapan | Mau secanggih apapun org lain memupuk pesonanya,menimbun perhatiannya,kalau kita sempurna mengendalikan hati,no problem at all.. #Tere_Liye #indianamind (December 7th, 2013)

Really miss the moment :'( .. #indianamind (December 5th, 2013)

Let's be honest, we all want to be wanted …#song #indianamind (December 5th, 2013)

A woman doesn't need to tell you straight how she feels. It's written all over her eyes.. #indianamind (December 5th, 2013)

Mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti… #song #indianamind (December 3rd , 2013)

Supermassive Black Hole in my heart... #song #indianamind (December 3rd , 2013)

vide... #indianamind (December 3rd , 2013)

It doesn't matter who hurt you, or broke you down, what matters is who made you smile again. #quote #indianamind (December 1st , 2013)

Hope I can say this to You "You were my first. You were my last, and you've been everything in between"  #movie #indianamind (November 27th, 2012)

Hmmm James Bond syndrome... #indianamind (November 22nd, 2012)

Sometimes people have to cry out all their tears, to make room for a heart full of smiles…#indianamind (November 20th, 2012)

Ooooouuccchh …My heart wants you, my head doesn't …#indianamind (November 11th, 2012)

One of the worst feelings is being ignored by someone that matters. …#indianamind (November 10th, 2012)

. _ _ ._ _. _ _._ _ …#indianamind (November 9th, 2012)

I'm just trying to be honest with myself, with you, with the world…#song #indianamind (November 7th, 2012)

Time is going by so much faster than I and I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you …#song #indianamind (November 7th, 2012)

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.. #quote #indianamind (November 7th, 2012)

I search but never find, hurt but never cry…#song #indianamind (November 6th, 2012)

Here is my dilemma. One half of me wants you and the other half wants to forget…#song #indianamind (November 6th, 2012)

Why worry about things you can't change? Move on because life isn't waiting ..#quote #indianamind (November 5th, 2012)

You cannot change people. You have two options: you either accept them for who they are or you leave them and let them be … #indianamind (November 4th, 2012)

Imposible to find? #song #indianamind (October 31st, 2012)

You: Hmmmmm.... | Me: hmmmm-nya pake nada apa? | You: D# flat not.. | Me: oooouuuch... #indianamind (October 29th, 2012)

Every girl needs a good guy who can help her laugh when she thinks she'll never smile again #quote #indianamind (October 28th, 2012)

My head is saying 'fool, forget him', my heart is saying 'don't let go #song #indianamind (October 28th, 2012)

When u take the time to stand by yourself as an independent person, you find out that you can move on & be fine on ur own… #quote #indianamind (October 28th, 2012)

I wish You were my first. You were my last, and you've been everything in between …#indianamind (October 28th, 2012)

If two people are meant to be together, they will eventually find their ways back into each others arms, no matter what… #quote #indianamind (October 27th, 2012)

Wahai mata dan mood bersahabatlah.... #indianamind (October 25th, 2012)

You never know how STRONG you are... Until being strong is the ONLY choice you have... Be strong D... #mymantra #indianamind (October 24th, 2012)

I hate when i realize that you're the only person i can talk to #friendsquote #indianamind (October 22th, 2012)

Fakta: nangis tuh bikin (1) lapar, (2) mata bengkak, tapi (3) lega.... #indianamind (October 22th, 2012)

Youuuuuu #song #indianamind (October 20th, 2012)

I just want you to know who I am.. #song #indianamind (October 11th, 2012)

You: Bener2 pgn hidup tenang... | Me: ('°_°')\('-' )  #indianamind (October 10th, 2012)

Spend My Life With You… #song #indianamind (October 10th, 2012)

Out Of Reach… #song #indianamind (October 8th, 2012)

Love of My Life.. #song #indianamind (October 3rd, 2012)

Ingin Sepotong Hati yang Baru .... #indianamind (October 3rd, 2012)

Never regret something that made you smile. because at the time, it was everything you wanted… #quote #indianamind (September 29th, 2012)

Stuck like a tattoo.. #song #indianamind (September 28th, 2012)

Sweet sleep, My Dark Angel.. #song #indianamind (September 26th, 2012)

Become supporter for You....YOU CAN DO IT... #indianamind (September 24th, 2012)

So blueeeee…#indianamind (September 22th, 2012)

If I show it to you now, will it make you run away? (September 17th, 2012)

Who can say... #song #indianamind (September 4th, 2012)

Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad ... #song #indianamind (September 2nd, 2012)